Towards Eternity

Do you know what's the feeling of being fully used by God? Is He taking control of you or is it the other way round?

I've been giving an opportunity recently to know what's the meaning of being use by God and been challenge. When God spoke to me bout this, we have alil long chat. I ask, "What is it like to be use?". well He didn't answer me right after i ask that, perhaps this is how he answer my question.

When we were chatting, one thing that He make it clear for me is that I shall have a healthy body in order to do more great thing for Him. So I said...okey... I guess you know that i felt sick often...well obviously He knows. So the challenge begin the day after that. I wanna be use by God fully, no matter what I'm doing, and where I am, but this didn't comes easy. The next thing I know is that i felt sick! gosh, one thing that I've been told. I've been sick for 2 weeks and it started with high fever for 2 days, 100.6c. I know this is not a fight of my flesh but this is spiritual. I pray all day and everyday that I will be heal, but well things doesn't goes as I wanted to. After visiting the doctor, I have to eat 4 types of medicine, which one of them taste real real bad, and after eating the medicine I can taste nothing when I eat. For the whole 2 week I haven't been eating much. All I remember doing is drinking Coke because it helps and eating salad or drinking soup, because eventually everything I ate will come out real soon anyway.

Last saturday, is my turn to lead worship in Praise Kids. I was so weak for the whole week, and the night before I spend an hour + in the toilet! funny? ya alil but it suffer. I don't wanna give up and tell my leader that I can't lead worship because I am sick. So I've been praying hard that whole week that I will feel better and heal in Jesus Name. Saturday 12pm, time for me to get out and go for worship practice, still I wasn't feeling any better. 1:30pm after practice, still the same. After that we spend some time praying and the team prayed for me. The team members is such a blessing to me, they pray for me and give me tips too! I've really loved in this ministry. My leader came to me and ask, "Are you sure you can do this?" I do not want to give up and tell God, "God use me today" and I told my leader, "Yes, by faith." So the celebration start, introduction, still I'm not feeling any better but I give my best for God on that stage. Worship time! prepare myself for a few minutes and get myself back on that stage and heat the best for God. Surrender. Me and my team on stage have great fun leading worship and the children and all the people on floor enjoy themselves real much! Amazing! It turns out the worship was great, it was short, but great. I felt nothing but the Holy Spirit and the joy and fun when I was leading, no pain, nothing! I see the Holy Spirit moved in me, in that place. It was strong. After the worship, I quite down myself for a few minutes and praise God for what He did. It was God and nothing else.

This is what I experience, what is it to be used by God. Worship, never about us but it's all about God. To let God use me when I was leading is a previlege. All Glory to God for what He have done. God works tru us when we allow Him to.

This is what we do when it comes to worship.
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Pray together with the team before and after the worship, EVERY team members must be in, for me this is very important, this is a time for us to know our focus and I strongly believe that God wants us to pray as one team. This is also to create unity in the team.

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Have FUN! I will always tell my team that I don't need anything fancy and stuff, just give me some FUN! Esp to the musicians I'm working with that afternoon, it's not about skills anyway. For me when my team is having fun, I have fun, and the floor will get the same thing too. FUN IS IMPORTANT, well at least in children ministry.

I pray that you guys will make a choice today to be use by the one and only that you can trust most that is God. May your today be fill with joy and peace. God bless.

P/s: Special thanks to those who help and support me real much by praying, giving me tips and caring for me, what you guys have done is highly appreciate. Praise God for people like you all! God bless!

Finally my streamyx is alive again...it has been so so so long that my streamyx cannot connect, special thanks to TMNet! haha LOL...

Well peeps! hope that I can spend alil more time here.... i have nothing to say now~ just wanna tell you guys that God is always good, you might be going tru some hard time now... but there's a reason for it and I'm pretty sure that you will get tru it somehow! for God is good. He don't harm my friend....He don't. So is your life been challenge? well congrats! for you're gonna be bring to another level of faith and another level of life now! Do not worry, written in the Bible, so do not. Do your best in everything and let God deal with the rest. Praise Him! Praise Him my fellow friends! for He is good!

Fomula to keep yourself alive and well, Praise and Pray. Keep close my friend, keep close. God love you all so much that i wanna kiss you all out there!!! If you read this post and am looking forward for a kiss from God, tell me ah..hahaha! don worry i won't do anything to you guys!

Remember! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!

Weeee...God is good. I had a real great week busy and refreshing. Let see... Eklektos Training, Children Camp and teachers training all by Ps David and Ps Steven all this was on last week and few days back. I am really blessed by this two great man of God. I enjoy real much in this process of upgrading my faith and trust. Children camp was AWESOME! God love me so much to let me be part of this ministry, children ministry.

We have Ps Dav and ps Stev with us on the day camp, they were the one who do the teaching and basically... the whole camp! Im so blessed by their teaching, its about hero! ya.... Jesus is my hero!!!! alright! lets talk more bout trust now.

Tru both of them i've learn more bout anointing and trust. I see how they trust in God and where God brings them to when they choose to trust in the Lord in everything they do. Well i really look up to both of them for their faith in God. I was so amazed when God show me how the children worship God with all their heart, 1 pure heart. AWESOME! Honestly i wasn't that ready for the camp, i mean...i do not know much what are we suppose to do, the only thing i know is that me and kimberly suppose to lead the worship. So with that! Just do it for God la. Alot of times we have to sing and lead songs that we do not know, of course with Ps Dav on leading us la... imagine that! knowing nothing about a new song and have to sing that song on stage! gosh! challenging...and i love it! hahahaha. Amazingly we did it! and this is all because of the Holy Spirit. Hallelujah! The worship team was so blessed and i'm so blessed by this team of peeps who choose to trust God and giving the best that they have for God! the little backup singers, the musicians and Kimberly. God shows me how this people grow spiritually and how we grow together as 1 big family. We all choose to trust in God and let Him do whatever He wants in us, and he did use us and his instrument to reach out to the children. The worship was awesome! We had alot of fun confusing most of the time..haha! but we really do enjoy it because God is taking control! It's just so great to see the children really worship in spirit, now, they're not just lifting up their hands because we said so, but! ah! you should see how they worship! it just that pure heart! that first love towards God shown in their face. At that point i know that God is really moving in all this little ones' life and ours too. God is so so good!

I think God really shows me what is it to be TRUST in Him. When you choose to trust in Him, miracles happens, life been change, not only other people but ourself too. I learn to trust His with all my heart, esp when this children camp comes, and for reture i received more than enough! I see children grow in their faith, teachers and helpers too. Seeing them worshiping God with all their heart is just!!! ah im speachless! its AWESOME! and i can't ask for more. I love God! He not only let me see all this but He use me, and that feels so great...i don't even need to worry a thing! cos He is already using me. I’ve really learn to let myself to be an instrument of God. Now I pray like I never before, spend more and more time with God. Pray for other people around me like I never before and doing things by faith, I have no idea why sometime I pray for something that I do not know, but I know for sure it is God wanna speak to this person that I’m praying for. Now I’m living a life that not mine anymore, a life that full with God’s plan, doing my best everyday in everywhere for God and trusting that God will use me in everywhere I am, for this life belongs to Him

Trusting God is just the best thing I’ve ever felt, it’s awesome! I believe that in everything I do, God have His anointing upon it, and I believe with this trust, things will be change for a better! I know God love people around me. I know God love me! I love Him real much too. Keeping myself close to Him is just so fun for I get to know Him more. I love this life, for it is God who is in control. Thank you Lord! Ps Stev said this, EXPECT! That’s right, I expect God to do some great thing when I pray, for I know that He will do even greater things that I could ever imagine. Don’t worry Ps Stev! I remember what you shared with me. Thank you=]

If you are wondering what is so great about this God I’m saying, I tell you He’s not only my God, He’s my best friend. Ah… I’m so so touch by this best friend. Well are you ready to trust God?

God I take this opportunity to pray, pray that Lord you will guide us into trust You more everyday of our life, Father I believe that everything I pray, you heard it and you’re gonna do something with it. I love you Lord. May your Holy Spirit guide us all our days.

Thank you Ps Dav and Ps Stev for letting God use you=] God bless!

When is the last time you tell someone your testimony? What is your testimony?



Everyone have a testimony of themselves.. the testimony that i'm talking about here is something amazed you so much and God is in the picture of this amazing stuff, well thats my opinion on testimony here. Testimony is not only about how you came to know Christ, it doesn't end there. I've learn that actually we can have testimony for everyday.



The other day i was asking myself, so what is my testimony? When is this testimony happens? I remember hearing a sermon bout this, we gonna keep on update our testimony. So your testimony doesn't stop on how you came to know Christ! you have new testimony everyday. So i started to ask God what's the meaning of updating our testimony everyday? What actually is it like to have a new testimony about my yesterday when i woke up in the morning? Well guess what! Ask and you will receive.



Asking God to show me how to update my testimony everyday means that to simply letting Him take control of our life everyday. God do amazing stuff in our life everyday, if you realize that. No matter where we are, what we're doing, who we're with.. He create opportunity, and just for us to do His great thing on this earth today. If only i see my today tru God's eyes, if only i let God fill me with His spirit tru out my today, then i realize that.. there's really lotsa opportunity here and there, and you'll be amazed is how God use you in your today. Waw.. honestly.. going to college everyday is a challenge for me. Knowing that God wanna do something in SIA today, knowing that somehow i'm gonna update my testimony again for today! is just so exciting! Sometime i choose to run away from it, or maybe not bringing that spirit with me when i wake on this earth...it makes my yesterday was just so boring, nothing much to say about it, nothing much to do about it, which is not good, means i didn't do something for God today. Doing things for Him doesn't mean have to be BIG, simple talk with someone maybe is just what you need to do today, who knows that simple talk will change his or her life! right?



Real simple, when you wake up in the morning, pray that God will bring your tru your today, not tomorrow but today. Pray that you will be sensitive to His spirit, and the next thing you know... God will amazed you with something maybe a just alil things... so watch out there my friend! Let God use you just today. C'mon peeps! lets update our testimony today!



May God fill you guys with His Holy Spirit today. Amen

Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti Dalam hidupku,
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya

Ya Abba Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku

Ya Abba Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanaMu

English translation:

I want to love Jesus forevermore
I want to love Jesus forevermore
Eventhough trials and tribulations May occur in my life,
I WILL STILL love Jesus forevermore

Yes, Father,
Here I am, Your child
Make worthy all of my life

Yes, Father,
Here I am, Your child
Use me as You will in Your plan.

4 in the morning, finish doing assignment and ready to go to bed.. in my room, close the light. When i close the light, i realize that my left eye can't see a thing! It's all dark, so i check if i'm still opening my eye...yes! i am but i cant see a thing.. i close both of my eyes for a minute or 2, open, still my left eye see nothing but darkness. Scary har.... I close my eyes again for a few more minutes... after that, with only my right eye open, went to open the lights. Slowly open the left eyes and finally i can see lights..both eyes..fuh~ scary moment.

Darkness is not fun, it is really scary to know that you have both eyes, but see nothing but the dark. Even tho i just suffer that for just that few minutes but it is scaray enough! I can't imaging if I can't see a thing in this world with that pair of beautiful eyes... Now, this world is a beautiful world, we are so blessed cause we can see this world. Don't you think so? I'm glad that i can still see...thank God.

What is spiritually blind? Spiritually, God let us see this world through His eyes. Seeing the needs of others. Whats the point of having eyes if you can only see darkness? The same goes to our spiritual eyes, it is important for us to have this spiritual eyes that see the needs of others and see what actually God wants us to see this world as, people around us, world that you're in, this nation. Since you're created by God, what's the purpose you in this world if you can't see what He wants you to see? It doesnt harm anyone to see this world through His eyes, actually it make things goes even more exciting and easier when you see it through His eyes... really! give it a try....

I challenge you guys to ask this from God, to see this world through His eyes. Dear Lord, help us to see this world through your eyes, Amen. Do not blind your own eyes. I shall go to check my eyes real soon.

God bless~

Our collage will having a concert at Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Our concert is not just singing but also fashion show and music performance.Not to be missed, we also invite:

-Hau (1st runner up in Reality Show Astro 8tv Superstar)

-Jiaja(Champion of Reality Show Astro Hitz t.v Blast off 2004)

-Andalusia (Best Vacal and Best Drummer of Reality Show Astro Hitz T.V Blast off 2006)
-SIA Jazz Syndicate(Champion of Sabah 1st Jazz Competition 2007)

Ticket information...
RM15 for Student(only available for primary and secondary school)
RM30 for Adult
RM300 for VIP sit
RM500 and above will be awarded 2 VIP tickets and as invited guest for stage opening
For more information please contact me. Thank you

1. How are you feeling today?
Put Your Head On My Shoulder by Micheal Buble

2. Will you get far in life?
I Lift The Name Of Jesus by 1AM

3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
Sing A Song Of Praise by Unknow
It’s a praise song for kids.

4. What is the story of your life?
Slow Fade by Casting Crowns
This is a good song, check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-8SYA6rfbs

5. What was school like?
Here’s To You by Collin Brown
Ya…

6. How can you get ahead with life?
Understood by Tank
Hahaha I love this movie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NkHeeERfAo8

7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
Beautiful Savior by Planetshakers
Jesus!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCleEjxB-jI8.

Describe your grandparents?
Take Me- Hendrickson Family and FriendsI really love this song, this song really take me away…but I dono what do it have to do with my Gs tot…

9. How’s your life going?
Heaven In My Heart by Beci Wakerly
Children worship song
Yap….thats right heaven in my heart….

10. What will be played at my funeral?
It’s Beginning To Look Like Christmas by The Chipmunks
WHAT!!!!!???? Gosh….okey….?

11. Will you have a happy life?
Everything To Me by Hillsongs
Ooo yes….Jesus is everything to me!! Sure m gonna have happy life!!

12. What do your friends really think of you?
Chang Sek Su Ga by Justin
Translate, Orangy Summer Holiday!! Hahaha erm….am i??

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Speak To One Another by Unknow
What question is this!? This is another praise song for kids. Nice song…ignore the question pls.

14. How can you make yourself happy?
You Are All I Ever Need by 1AM
That’s right! Only God gives me true happiness tru everything He give! You are all I ever need God!!!

15. Will you ever have children?
Open The Eyes of My Heart by Paul Baloche
Right….what do this mean? God?

16. What song would you strip to?
Still by Hillsongs
What???

17. What does your mom think of you?
Hey I Love You So by Unknow
Oo im sure she is…. Hahaha love you too

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Love In The Air by JJ
Now… is that suppose to be dark secret?

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Worship You For Real by Jaeson Ma & Mike Whang
Ahahahaha….ooo really?? Good!

20. What’s your personality like?
Shout It Out by Planetshakers
OOO YA!!!!! SHOUT BABE!

21. What will be played at your wedding?
Hey Jude by The Beatles
Gosh… good wan…but there must be a better wan…

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2 days ago my dad bang on a lady's viva here near by my house. I was really shock when my mom called and told me that. I was like....my dad? bang on others? huh? he is such a careful driver, he dont drive fast he drive so peacefully...how come? Turn out actually its the lady's fault she didnt stop when she's suppose to and was like speeding with 2 kids with her...gosh... dangerous. My dad bang on her and he was trying to safe 1 of the kid who is sitting in the front sit, so he side to another side and that cost the viva to bang on someone's gate. The whole gate came off.

You know what, the first thing she said when she get down from her car was "uncle, it's your fault, you bang on me" which is not, there's a line on the road, and there's a 'STOP' sign some more...gosh...my dad just be patience and talk nicely to her lar...show her the line and the sign.. haha...of cos after that she said sorry lar... thank God that everyone is ok. We're glad that the kids is ok. My dad's car still lookin good, just alil damaged...his car is old BUT it is that tough! love his car....but that viva...sad sad... She no only need to pay us, she will also need to pay for the gate and also repair her car. Her car can't actually move nmore. On that night we went to police station cos the lady wanna do report. So report it is...

My dad said this is his first time bang on someone...gosh...thats so not like me.... i have record in banging others! haha...ones again.. really we have to be very careful when driving or even passing the road. Sometime it is not us that is careless, there's just lots of ppl out there that is careless. Drive safe is really what i've learn. Well it might not keep me away from accidents but maybe just maybe you can safe a life and yours. I cant imaging what happen IF my dad was too speeding at the same time. I cant imagine if it is me who was driving. I thank God that my nephew was not in the car, my dad was on his way to pick up the babies that time.. thank God.... thank God.. i still remember when i was real young, some crazy car bang on us, me and my family was in the car and i get injured...oo well till today we do not know who's that crazy car...haha...the only thing i remember most is that i cried alot cos of the pain..hahah!

Come to tot of it....there's lots of things happening around me, good stuff..not good stuff.... my family going tru a huge change i think.. really quite a number of stuff that is happening in my family recently.. if you have a heart, do pray for me and my family. Your prayer is needed and really appreciate that. I appreciate you guys spending your time read this and take a step of faith to pray for me and my family.. thank you! i hope you guys learn something tru this post...hahaha!

For myself, well seeing whats going on around me is not even close to fun. What i need most now is really stay close to God, i have no idea why is all this things happening, why now, not only this accident but more than that. It will take me ages to post it...haha you can ask me personally...=] Keep praying, loving and blessing everyone around me is what i wanted to do now.. God love you guys, i love you guys too... appreciate what you have and appreciate everyone around you, you will not know what will happen tomoro my fren...

God bless!

It's 3am in the morning, 25 of June 2008. Me and my family am awake cos of 1 call. Dont worry this is not gonna be horror... My sis called and look for my mom, when i pick up that phone i knew this is not gonna be good, of cos what do you expect, its 3 in the morning. Guess what, she called to tell us that the husband is scolding her because of some stuff that he can't handle. She cried, and am still crying...

Husband came back 2am, drunk and started to scold her.. this is not the first time, and it will not be the last... she cried like she always do... we wanted to go her place and just bring her out from there and settle stuff out, but she refuge cos she knows that it wont help and she dont want other ppl to hurt. I wanted so much to just punch him, i really do! This is really heart broken. You woke up and found your husband to be drunk and scold you for something that is not your fault? how good can that sound and it can be worse. Who knows what will happen next? I wanted to be the superman to save my sister and the children out from there! but i know i can't. Things happens, lots of things is happening in my family, mom argue with her brother, and now this. What next?

I hate the fact that i have to see this happening, have to hear my sis always cry because of that same old guy of hers and have to fight and suffer for her safety and the safety of both of her children. In that house, she have to really humble herself for the safety and future of the children. I am sick of this! this is not the first time! and it only get worse. It is not fun to know that this happens to my sister, you would not enjoy when you know your sister is suffering that much, he have really make me sick of him in somehow, all that he did. If you were me you will wanted to punch him, but i know i can't do that cos that will leads even more trouble. No one will listen to me at this moment, i understand. All that i can do now is ask God for help, crying for my family, my sister who always suffer this. You have no idea how much my sister try to make things better and make that family a better family for the children, but this guy who never listen, never think, never mature, just brings everything down. My sister really have that patience. I really pray that 1 day he will be change... to a better husband, a better father, a better person.

Now my mom can't even sleep, sitting out here watching tv or the other way round, she's worrying alot i know, just that she do not what me to know cos she do not want me to be include in this, trying to protect me, i can just tell her to not to argue with them but handle this problem with care. I know i cant help much, and the best way i know is to pray, so i did, praying that God will take control, there's a reason for everything to happen, i believe. I call God and cry out to him, just like my sister called my mom cos she knows somehow she can find peace and believe that my mom can do something in this. And i believe as i call God and cry out to him, i believe that He will do something to handle this problems. Thats the only thing i can do and i wanted to do, i can't go and punch him, i can't talk to my sister cos i know she will not listen to me, so i talk to God then, He listen, He helps.

Friend, marriage is something that more of the girls will be looking forward to. Do you know that when my sister knows that she's gonna get marriage, she's the happiest person in this world, even tho she knows what kinda person the husband is. I think she have always been dreaming of raising that children with her husband, even tho so many things happen yet she tried to be the peace maker, say nothing just let him with his temper goes. She still love and will love the husband the same no matter what he do. As a third person, this is really hurting, suffer to see my sis have to suffer. Don't even think of loving someone if you can't love yourself and take good care of yourself, i'm not talking bout physically. Love everyone around you, esp your family members, no matter how hard it is, love. Now i choose to love my brother in law, cos i am called to love, it is not physical war this is a spiritual war. Love him more and pray more for him, a changed heart.

Things happens for a reason, i will alwys keep them in prayer, cos i believe in it. God have Your way. If you have a heart please pray with me. Prayers is really needed. Thank you. May God bless you and your family..

Do you realize that lots of time when we get something we'll be so attracted to the exterior, the outer beauty of it and forgot and even ignore the inner beauty, the important part of that something? Well I donno bout you, but i do...haha! A cup of coffee...do you go Starbucks for their good drinks or something else?

Let me introduce you to a man name Nehemiah. Nehemiah is a very important man for the kingdom that he is in. He's the wine and food TESTER for the king. So he play and very important role not only to the king but also the people... In Nehemiah chapter 1, erm the Bible k.. talk bout Jerusalem, Nehemiah's hometown. Walls been broken down and gates have been burned down. Whats the bigdy you ask? In those days the walls and gates is real important without it the enemies can attack easily... When Nehemiah knows bout this, he prayed and fast for days so that the king will free him and let him go back to Jerusalem to fix the mess..and he even confess the sins on behalf of the Israelites. Nehemiah got what most ppl want, i mean... he's the most important person in the kingdom...kinda.. but YET his heart is always with Jerusalem, his hometown. His concern has always been in God's purpose for Jerusalem.

Now lets learn from Nehemiah...how?

1.OUR PRIORITY MATTERS TO GOD.
- God's invitation. Are you hearing Him today as He invite you to do something with Him?
- Do what is important in God's eyes to pealse Him rather that pleasing others or even yourself.
- Just like Nehemiah, he choose to go back to Jerusalem, his hometown to fix the mess because he knows that his priority is also God's priority. That is His Will for Jerusalem.

2. OUR ATTITUDE MATTERS TO GOD.
- Discover our attitude towards God
- Nehemiah discover that the more he seek God, the smaller your problems appear. Nehemiah have a deep respect towards God, and he trust Him. Nehemiah fears God, so he choose to trust that by His strength nothing is impossible. (Asking the king for permission)

3. OUR PRAYERS MATTERS TO GOD.
- Nehemiah ask favor from God that the king will release him.
- Nehemiah trusted that God can do it.
- Nehemiah praise God and repent for the Israelites.
- God is our promise keeper ( Nehemiah 1:8)
- Persistent
~ Continue to pray
~ If you can't pray, look for love. Means look for others to pray for you or pray together even better.
~ Luke 18: 1-17
-The persistent widow get her justice from a unjust judge after begging and begging. (V8) What more when we cry
out to God? Dont you think He will do something?
-The tax collector, humble himself and justified. (V14)
-Let the children come, coming like a child to His kingdom. ...kingdom of God belongs to such as this...(V15-17)
Prayer comes with His word. There's no short cut my friend...get real!
Pray Until Something Happens

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Bless others
2. Reach out to people that God wants me to
3. Use my life for Him alone
4. To love everyone as much as I can
5. Get married?
6. Share the good news
7. Bring up the next generation

Seven things you can do:
1. Write with my left hand… of cos…
2. Laugh with no sound… really!!
3. Play guitar
4. Drive
5. Make Joy laugh like mad!!!
6. Sing
7. Talk

Seven most repeated phrases or words:
1. Fine…
2. LOL
3. Ya right…
4. Really??
5. Awesome
6. Haha...
7. Goodness

Three names you go by:
1. Theresa
2. Tee
3. Tess

Three things you like about yourself:
1. Myself
2. Smile
3. My life

Three things you don't like about yourself:
1. Cry alot
2. taking up lots of stuff
3. get tired easily

Three things that scares me:
1.Snakes
2. Mouse that came out suddenly
3. Tickle

Three drinks I like:
1. Fruit Juice
2. Yogurt drink
3. Something to do with lemon

Three of your daily essentials:
1. God’s word
2. Pray
3. Eat?

Three things that you are wearing now:
1. Tshirt
2. Short pant
3. Hair clip

Three of my current favourite movies:
erm…gosh.. have not been hanging front of the screen much… so don have..

Two truths and a lie:
You know the truths and why do you need lie?

Three things about the opposite sex that appeals you:
1. His smile, the way he make me smile..lol…
2. His walk with God
3. Character and attitude

Three careers that you are considering, or have considered:
1. Interior and landscape designer
2. Psychologies
3. Pilot… I just enjoy flying

Yesterday when i was havin my nap, i dreamed bout my sis. We were at her work place, Stan Chart, and something not good happened. I do not remember well what actually happen in the dream. So i woke up and pray bout it. Night, my sis text me and ask me to send her to work... ones again i was reminded of that dream.

So just now i went to pick her up and send her to work. When i saw her, she was wearing the same clothe as i seen inside my dream. Gosh... i keep praying... pray that God will protect her. Well something happen next! When we're on our way to Stan Chart, we almost get hit by this red taxi. This taxi with 4 uncles in it was trying to turn and get out from his parking place without taking notice that my car is just at his blink spot. It was really close. Thank God i wasnt speeding that time... or else... i cant imagine. my sister was beside me, she scolded me for what happen. haha... well i will always be the 1 who o blame even tho its really not my fault, and the uncles is laugh as if he didnt do anythin wrong. oo well just thank God that everyone is fine. I was shock and i did somehow shout? i dono...

This is not the first time, few days ago when i was on my way home, Foh Sang traffic light. The road opposite Damai, 2 lane. 1 can go both way either straight or to the left and the other 1 can only go 1 way that is the left. I was on the road with you can go both way and there's this Kelisa beside me. When the light turns green, this Kelisa tried to go straight which he's not suppose to and almost hit me who is trying to go to the left side. Thank God there's no car behind me for i was trying hard to break. Thank God my break works. This guy in the Kelisa is crazy! how can he put his children in danger like that! there's a kid inside the car. If he does bang on me that day, i think i wouldn't be writing this blog now. It is that bad. Really, he's so close to me and yet he's trying to do this crazy stuff. Putting him and his family in danger and myself. I cant imagine if there's a car behind me, it will be a real bad accident if it does happen. Thank God that we're all ok. Thank God that there's no car behind me, thank God that He's protecting me all the time. Almost get killed. Gosh....

Well i'm still terrify by what happend this morning and the Kelisa thingie... thank God for all this while i was driving slow, my dad always remind me to drive slow. Cant imagine what will happen if i did speed... Sometime it is not that we're careless. It's just people around us that is not careful. Drive safe my friends... you will never know what will happen next. Just be careful.

Another thing that you might need to take note is this. I'm still alive...i know you might dont care! hahaha! nway... this is all cos God been protecting me and people around me all this while. Eveytime before i start my engine i will say alil prayer, for protection and journey mercy. I think thats what been keeping me safe all this while. If you guys have been doing it, keep doing so. If you don't actually do so...well maybe is time to try sumthing new? Lets not put our life and others' in danger...Appreciate every second of your life, no matter is good or bad. Just thank God that you're still alive and well today.

Drive safe. God bless.

What a week... this week been quite busy, going here and there, up and down... meeting after meeting...gosh gosh.. currently is more on college stuff, handling and m gonna involve with organizing some events. At the same time m also starting to do my assignments. 2 different scale window display, Sketching, having talk everyday and gonna do the reports, meetings, meeting minutes to write. Translate for a few speakers this week. It wasn't quite good but haha it was funny..thank God i have great people around me.. love them..

I'll appear in college very often nowadays, everyday...sometime from 8 till 5pm. Macam working this... All this while i've been trying my best to do the best that i can for God. Sometime i will ask myself why actually am i so busy? why am i taking up so many responsibility? People around me will ask what am i actually so busy with? Some of them know how my days been going on. They see my tiredness.. haha...ya.. i get tired real easy actually the same goes to sick. But m still very healthy now! Praise God. How i miss the nature where there's just God, the nature and i. Miss Papar...

Well even though life doesnt seams to be easy... being around people that i am now is very challenging sometime. yap=] But i'm glad with who and where i am today. Cause i know that God is working in me.. i feel so alive! being busy is not actually a bad thing. I actually enjoying my life now. I guess is cause there's a reason for me to move on, a goal to achieve.. cool... Lots of things i do not understand YET, some of it goes quite a time...some of it happens recently, but it is because God knows my strength and He knows the ability that i have, so i trust in Him in all that i have. My future. People that i love so much, those crazy guys around me, people where God is crazy bout. God is really challenging me in care for them and love them. But i love the fact that i can hang out with them and show them my care and love. Bless them. All i wanna do now is to bless others with my life. This life is not mine, so let God use it.

God's gonna bring us tru all this things that we're going tru. Good or bad. He'll bless you in different way and encourage or even confirm you in something in different way. Hold on there! Another thing that been keeping me moving on is the awesome people around me, friends that who understand and care. My cute family...haha! love them real much.. friends and family that need God so so so much! yap...they're 1 of the reason i choose to take up the challenge too! God is good.

I'm - Enjoying and happy in all the responsibility that i'm taking
- Ready to take up more responsibility
- Ready for more!
- Gonna bless others with all that i have
- Gonna love you more! Don worry i wont eat you
- Gonna let God brings me to another level, Surprise me LORD!
- Not giving up!

Be ready to experience the fun that you're gonna go tru when you let Him take the lead.

Things looks hard? well let God takes it for you

God bless!

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you :-
HIM>buy me chicken wing?
HER>bring me to Christ

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is because :-erm...i'll tell you whn that happens

5 things found in my bag - rubbish, handphone, key, planner, notebook

5 things found in my wallet - money, verses, receipt, love shape money, cards

5 favourite things in my room- bed, my guitar, blanket, bible, pillow!

5 things I always wanted to do- Bless others.

5 things I am currently into- rest, youtube, takin care my nephews, more sleep, practice singing and guitar
5 things I am currently would wish for-Bless others with my life. Spend more time with my family. Giving UP all that i have for God. Explore. Bring Heaven to earth.

[You]

First Name – Theresa
Nickname – T, baby, tess.
What do people normally mistake your name as – coffee or T? TESting?
Birthday – 17th September
Birthplace – Kota Kinabalu
Time of Birth – Lets ask my mom..
Single or taken – available for someone special only
Zodiac sign – Virgo
How tall are you – as tall as you seen
Wish you were taller – not anymore..haha
Eye color – black
Eye color you want - is there rainbow color?
Natural Hair color – same as Danielle's
Current Hair color – still the same...
Short or long hair – not too short and not too long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – nope
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – 2006
Glasses or contacts – glasses
Do you wear make-up – occasionally
Ever had hair extensions – nope
Paint your nails – yeah.

[This or that]

Flowers or Chocolates – flower
Pepsi or Coke – 100 plus?
Rap or Rock - yes Danielle!!! ROCK!!!
Relationship or One night stand – relationship for sure
School or Work – school and work not at the same time of cos
Love or Money – agree with Danielle...LOVE~!
Movies or Music – Music
Country or City – Country
Sunny or Rainy days – depends...haa..
Friends or Family – both la....aduh...

[Have you ever]

Lied – you mean u never?
Stole something – ya...
Hurt someone close to you – yap yap....
Broke someone's heart – physically no...mentally or emotionally ya...
Had your heart broken – again physically nope...mentally or emotionally YES!
Wondered what was wrong with you – yes..
Wish you were a prince/princess – ya wish
Liked someone who was taken – haha...yes..my dad? he IS taken you know.
Shaved your head – lol...
Been in love – yeah
Used chopsticks – forever
Sang in the mirror to yourself – sure y not!

[Favorites]

Flower – sunflower
Candy – i dono oo....what do u think?
Song – terlampau banyak this..
Scent – Danielle! i think the new brand thingie not bad.. haha!
Color – black
Movie – not enough space to write here..
Singer – Celion Dion
Word – LOL
Junk food – ice cream
Website – www.chedet.com
Location – beach
Animal – hamster


Ever cried over someone – lol thats for sure
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself – ya...
Do you think you're attractive – what do you think?
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – when it happens...i'll tell you...
Do you play any sports – hockey, badminton, 9 ball pool.

Hmmm... what can i do more to from this point of my life? what is that God You're trying to tell me? Giving up in those hopes that i had before? I'm confuse and ya did not know what i should do nmore.. did not know what can i do more.

Life is not easy but it's full of fun. Everyday eventually you will experience something new. And i know very well that i am. But well there will come to a point that i cant let go of something. Sometime is just taking alil more time to get tru it. but i'll survive nway. Just need time to get tru it i guess...Lord ones again i ask You to let Your will be done. And i know i can take this cos You go before be. Dear Lord, what shall i do now Lord. How can i be a blessing to others Lord. Your will be done.

My cat died this morning, crash by car i guess. and ya i do miss him real much. cos without my lil cat, life just goes alil different. Give me some time i'll be fine. I guess everyone love to drive real fast...but ya i think is good to slow down whn you're suppose to be..cos who knows you might bang on someone else pets or even their cat. Ya be careful. Father how shall i praise You even tho things happen so fast? would You please guide me.

Lord. I'm tired of all this. but i know there's sumthin that You want me to know, to do. Lord bring me deeper. There's always a reason for everythin. And i'll wait for You to move Lord. I'm giving up.

Fuh! tired out! was running my college 1st term exhibition for the last 2 days. It was really tiring but it was AWESOME! We had our artworks display and fashion show and also live band by our own students. Me and my vice president, Michelle was the MC for both day. At the beginning i was really really nervous! cos ya....i always get nervous in the beginning.. but after that everythin was good...exclude get scolded by my lecturer cos i dont remember our college's number...haha! ya my bad..hee..

Do you know how much the music can influence the whole mall!?? haha! When our students start to preform their songs everyone starts to hang around. Even before that everyone is oready staying around..when the music start i'm so so so amazed by them! they play some rock and jazz. most rock in the mornin and jazz at night. I was like..i dono! just AMAZED! staring at them playin the guitar....awesome! gosh gosh...

It was really tiring..not only for me but all of the students especially the music students. They have to rush most of the time they were always somewhere else b4 the exhibition. Goodness.. pity them... they didnt get to practice for the exhibition cos they were gettin ready for their exam which is on the same day! gosh! so whn it comes to the exhibition they hav to figure out wat song they wanna present and sing. Crazy! I was really worried bout them, their health. But this guy, Boly, he's alwys said don worry...we'll figure it out..they still encourage us! and of cos we encourage them too lar.. and is it cos of them too the both days went real cool! haha Praise The Lord.

Yesterday after exhibition i rush myself to a Rock and Jazz concert, and saw my SiA band there! the same person who hav been on stage for both day in our SiA exhibition.! and they're gonna be on stage again that night...with a really really tired face.. but they said "This is for God!" thats right! haha! awesome ppl... i intention of goin to this Rock and jazz is not just to njoy the music but oso to check out if there's some SiA students there n turns out there was! Hang out with them while they're still around. For i knw they're really tired and they wanted to do this for God. I just wanna be there to just support this guys.. they really mean alot to me. For they are my bro n sis in Chirst! I love them real much. And they love God that much too! whn it comes to time for them to shine..they bring out 1 jazz and a praise song. And it was AWESOME! more than words. God is really using them..and i'm really thankful. God love all of us! haha! ah!! this is more than words! n ya!

Another thing that amazed me is the catholic who went to preform on stage even the SiA students. I've never see catholic worship like they do! At that point i know that God is doing something in them too.. and ya God works individually. AWESOME!

Even tho they're so so so tired but YET! they do it for God and it was good. God really amazed me with ppl around me. their life, their hard times, their good times, free or busy or whatever... there's still God who works in them. God works individually.

God bless!

Arr...its been quite a time didnt update here.. well let me see.. the whole April is a real real busy time for me, cos of assignments and presentation to do. Well ya..... There's AssigmentsSsSs, 2 presentation, meeting minutes to write...meeting to attend, committee and the management meeting. Programmes to run! gosh gosh...this saturday and sunday SiA Exhibition~ haha! yap busy busy busy.



It was a real hard week last week, April 22 was my final presentation, so there's alot to do and alot to rush cos i have never ending assignments. There's perspective to draw, autocad to rush, sketching, and other subjects! haha yes alot. I can be real real real real stress esp the last few days b4 my presentation comes. But i choose not to.



Joy will always say this, don worry..njoy your time in doing your assignments. n i'll always remember that. This is a blessing from God that i can actually study and it is His will that i'm where i am today. So i told God im not gonna give up no matter what! n im not gonna stress out or complain bout anythin but i'm gonna njoy it. Thats my prayer. Even tho time is running out, but i really never worry bout it cos i dono...just have a feeling that i'm gonna do this n m gonna finish it on time. So i keep on and on and on and on! There's a few time i really feel like giving up and frustrated. But i told God that NO! im not gonna feel all that instate! im gonna enjoy this and win this war! And this is all for God alone!



I still get to sleep everyday...is just that for 4 to 5 hours per day only..haha but still doing good. Get sick few days right b4 presentation comes. It was really challenging and it was really takin my breathe away for the last few days b4 my presentation. 1 day b4 the BIG day, i woke up in the middle of the night and vomit! dono y..haha but ya...den the next day which is the last day for me to get things done and ready for presentation...BLACK OUT!!! i'm like..gosh gosh gosh....y now!!! and most of the SiA students text each othere...OO NO!!! MY ASSIGNMENTS!! haha! so i have to paint my water color painting wit my lil emergency light..but its better than nothin..and i told God, i'm gonna praise You even in this situation, and He give me strength=] everytime when some NOT GOOD mind comes to me i will listen to Ps Jaeson Ma's 'Life Is Beautiful' and it really encourage me alot to keep moving on! haha Awesome God.



Finally, the BIG day comes. Didnt sleep the day b4...not! i did...for 30minutes...haa.. den off to college for presentation! hahaha...real enjoy my presentation that day...love it much! haha And my lecturer said my presentation is real good just need to improve in my drawings and my design. So ya...I'm real glad that i have my today. God is awesome that He brings me tru out all this. In the mid of all this busyness there's too family probs...but God take everythin in control. My week goes real busy but i really enjoy every minute of it. Cause God is with me all the time and my strength is from Him alone. God is good..



Let God take control of your life..even tho things real hard sometime...enjoy it and trust in God and you'll see the different=] try it=]