Caring is ???

Author: Theresa /


sometimes i wonder...is it wrong to care for a person? hmmm... it all started when few weeks ago i was doing devotion in my room, then i ask God to teach me how to follow Him and give my life to Him...as i pray i know i'm ready for what is gonna come after that...well God answered my prayers. One of my fren was in some love trouble...he was so so stress and telling me that he dono what he should do...of cos i cant help much. Seeing this fren of mine suffering that much and the sad look of his everyday as i go to college is just that hurting inside. I wanted real much for him to be set free from all this things! this lies... this sufferings of feeling.. this is so not right! y do he have to have that sad face on him everyday! so i start to cry out and pray for him everyday cos i'm that hungry to see him been set free..as free as the bird in the sky. Things didn't actually goes better after that...after all that cries and tears and prayers... and he choose to solve the probs wit an really un-matured way.Lame! All the time i've been trying to help him, but he turns out to keep himself away from me and say "i don't want you to care" wow! should i celebrate!? hmmm... oo well... now..the only thing that i can do is yap! pray!!
tru out this situation, i've really learn lot. How much i wanted this fren of mine to be set free, i think God wanted it even more than v do. Crying and wasting my tears for for only 1 person for only a few days for his salvation..how much more God been doing that? how much tears? how long have He been crying for the lose? i've really felt God's heart this time. And i remember as i pray for my fren...i told God that i don't care what it takes even my life, just take it for this life to be save. Wow! dangerous prayer...but i'm ready for it.. and this reminds me of my prayer weeks ago, asking God to teach me how to give my life to Him. so true...so true,.. is just like how much God have always care for us..but we sometime just ignore Him and say "I don't want you to care!". How hurt har... God had really show me His heart, and i felt it... my week doesn't goes well but being in God's presence and His love for me..i still have my today. Caring is loving, caring is good..but caring sometimes is HURTING?? haha! My heart now is burning for my college, yet God says...be patience, there's a time for everything. My care and tears to this fren of mine will never be wasted cos God hears my prayers.=] I'm so glad that there's today.=] God knows that I'm ready for this and cos of His unfailing LOVE i'm stronger again today. Thank You God!
Romans 12:10, "Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves."
Ecclesiastes 3:11, He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men,
Try His heart not yours. God bless!=]



Show your care=]

As A Child

Author: Theresa /


Today, there's 3 gentlemen fr Sacred Heart visited my neighbourhood... they came in and introduce themselves and start to tell me whats the reason they standing outside my house. This gentlemen, mr Yap gave me their brochure and say.."we're here to spread the good news that Jesus is risen".. and i'm like...yes thats right and i know bout that! haha! so we started chatting. Take bout our church...take bout what's the purpose they're doin this. Telling me where's the church.. my nephew was standing beside me that time and he too m listenin to what they're sayin...well at least he try lar even tho he don understand oso.. he's only 16month old. Den suddenly my nephew,Damien trying to pull me away from where i was, as if he's trying to keep me away from the uncle so that i wont get hurt. When the first time he pull me away, i ignore him.. then he pull me away the second time again...Kinda like what God will do to keep us away from danger...keep pulling us away from it.. den i look at Damien and smile to him.. den i pick him up at the same time the 3 gentlemen leavin. Then i ask my mom...'why Damien pull me away ah?' haha well there's no answer for that cos we all dont understand baby talk.
When Damien pull me away...actually i felt really touch, is like he's trying to keep me away from the uncle, so sweet and cute. When i look at him, his innocent look just melt my heart. His everythin is showed in the way he is now.. how innocent.. A 16month old baby, cant really tell what he wants...but he's really trying to. All of his life.. he put his trust in us, to take care of him..to change his diapers... damien look to us for security.. when he saw some ppl that he dont know, he will always look for me or my mom to just hold him.. then he will find peace in his little heart. I'm so touch in how much he trusted in me for his life.. so innocent and yes it is so so cute. When he cry, we will run towards him and see what's goin on.. when he's hurt.. we tried our best to make him feel better and forget bout his pain. When he's hungry we'll give him some good food that he enjoyed. And he show us all of him in everythin he do, his character is just showed on his daily act and his face. So pure and innocent.
Are we as a child when coming to God? When we're crying..God knows it all the time.. He knows whts the reason for every tears. But did we run towards Him? When we're hurt, God knows the best way to heal our pains and make us forget bout it. But did we run towards Him? When we're hungry spiritually, He is the only one who can make us whole again. But did we run towards Him? hmm...
As a child who run towards the father for security, huge and everythin. Isn't that is how we should be too when we're living in this world where only God who knows our tomorrow? I learned to really humble b4 God even in the smallest thing in my life. He's my Creator and my Father in heaven who knows everythin that i have and everything that i am. I shall come to him like Damien, like a child. All my trust shall b upon Him. Come to Him with a pure and sincere heart.. God had really show me this tru what my lil nephew did today. Day by day my nephew learn something new and the things that he's learnin is all from us, who he trusted and look up to with all his life. So what he's learning good or bad is from us. Today we have a choice to make, to learn from the God who knows the best for us or to learn from this earth which will destroy and mess up our life. Think.


My nephew, Damien! love him real much=]

Authority

Author: Theresa /

Few days back, i had a really scary dream. Well it is scary for me. I was takin a nap in my room..and i feel like waking up, so i try to open my dear eyes..but i struggle in opening my eyes, trying hard to open up my eyes but can't. Keep trying for a few times later finally i woke up. When i was awake i take a look at my phone den i felt asleep again. Den i just remember that i ask someone sumthin while chatting b4 i take my nap, so i wanna woke up to check out if she reply me. So i try to wake up again...but the same thing happens..struggle to open up my eyes and havin difficulties in breathing... it is really scary...as if i'm not goin to see this world anymore and just pass away. The struggles continued for a few times.. I remember there's 1 time when i woke up i saw my sis is outside my room.. den i felt asleep again. Few minutes after that, i heard my mom and dad talking, my mom at that time is still in Papar. So i wanna wake up and check out is she back. Den i try to wake up, this time i saw myself on my bed, feel like there's someone's hand on my head, trying not to let me wake. It is really heavy and i have to breathe real hard to try to wake up.. while that happening... i heard a soft voice saying sumthin to do with heaven or before going to heaven. As if i'm going to die!! I cant really recall back what did the voice said. And so i try real hard to wake up this time. FINALLY! i woke up and this is really woke up. Quickly i went out and check if my mom is back from Papar. Well she's not, my dad is with another uncle talking outside... and the next thing i do is check my msn and she got ppl reply me onot, nothing there. At that time i was really scared and m shaking cos of the freaky dream i had. Janice was online, so i told her that i've a really scary dream. So she suggest to meet up with me but b4 that she ask me to go inside my room and pray. So i did. While praying, i saw this long hair..i'm really not sure whats that, and so i asked God. After that i saw this hair is actually belongs to this horoscope thingie.. the one half person and half horse, dono whats that called. nway ya that thingie... in a big round circle with alot of stars. Den this tough comes, and i being curse?? Well i dono.. den i continue to pray. the next thing i saw is the two item that my mom gave me for protection. She a buddist, so wherever im goin on a trip she will give me 1. There's 2 of it inside my room.Ended my prayer and grab that two stuff with me then when off to meet up with Janice. Am still shaking that time.. haha.
I told her everything... as details as i can.. and she asked me some question to figure out if thats an spiritual attack. After the Q and A, she prayed for me. She felt that, there's this spirit of death trying to mess up with me. So she leads me into prayer to break anything that have to do with all this spirits. It was really a powerful prayer asking the evil ones to get out of my way and God did speak to me too. Once again He reminded me that im His child who have been given the authority to drive out demons and others. He's my strength. While Janice is praying for me, all my fears gone. I can feel that the demons is scared and gone away. After praying we destroy the 2 item that my mom gave. Actually wanted to burn it but then is in the office.. so just cut and throw it away.Awesome=]
I've always have really weird and long dreams. But this time is the most scary wan, for me. If it is not become of God, if it is not cos of His love that gave me ppl around me, i think i would not be awake and there's no tomoro nmore for me. All the while whn im dreaming, i really felt that i'm going to die and not goin to see my love once nmore. Struggle real hard. I dont know if u guys ever experience all this, but this is not a game or just another dream. This is a way that the demon attack us.
I've really learned to face this kinda situation now. By God's strength and the authority that He've given to us, make use of it. I remembered that Janice oso prayed that i hav a good sleep now and forever more. And so! i have real good sleep nowadays. haha praise the Lord.
God is good all the time. no matter how hard it is, no matter how scary, no matter how hard a situation you're in, there's always a solution. God is always there to handle your stuff for you as long as u made the right choice to follow and listen to Him. Thank God for helping me making this choice to look for Janice, to pray about this. God is awesome!
Do not be afraid cos God gave you the authority. God bless!

Mark 16:17 - And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."