Towards Eternity

Do you know what's the feeling of being fully used by God? Is He taking control of you or is it the other way round?

I've been giving an opportunity recently to know what's the meaning of being use by God and been challenge. When God spoke to me bout this, we have alil long chat. I ask, "What is it like to be use?". well He didn't answer me right after i ask that, perhaps this is how he answer my question.

When we were chatting, one thing that He make it clear for me is that I shall have a healthy body in order to do more great thing for Him. So I said...okey... I guess you know that i felt sick often...well obviously He knows. So the challenge begin the day after that. I wanna be use by God fully, no matter what I'm doing, and where I am, but this didn't comes easy. The next thing I know is that i felt sick! gosh, one thing that I've been told. I've been sick for 2 weeks and it started with high fever for 2 days, 100.6c. I know this is not a fight of my flesh but this is spiritual. I pray all day and everyday that I will be heal, but well things doesn't goes as I wanted to. After visiting the doctor, I have to eat 4 types of medicine, which one of them taste real real bad, and after eating the medicine I can taste nothing when I eat. For the whole 2 week I haven't been eating much. All I remember doing is drinking Coke because it helps and eating salad or drinking soup, because eventually everything I ate will come out real soon anyway.

Last saturday, is my turn to lead worship in Praise Kids. I was so weak for the whole week, and the night before I spend an hour + in the toilet! funny? ya alil but it suffer. I don't wanna give up and tell my leader that I can't lead worship because I am sick. So I've been praying hard that whole week that I will feel better and heal in Jesus Name. Saturday 12pm, time for me to get out and go for worship practice, still I wasn't feeling any better. 1:30pm after practice, still the same. After that we spend some time praying and the team prayed for me. The team members is such a blessing to me, they pray for me and give me tips too! I've really loved in this ministry. My leader came to me and ask, "Are you sure you can do this?" I do not want to give up and tell God, "God use me today" and I told my leader, "Yes, by faith." So the celebration start, introduction, still I'm not feeling any better but I give my best for God on that stage. Worship time! prepare myself for a few minutes and get myself back on that stage and heat the best for God. Surrender. Me and my team on stage have great fun leading worship and the children and all the people on floor enjoy themselves real much! Amazing! It turns out the worship was great, it was short, but great. I felt nothing but the Holy Spirit and the joy and fun when I was leading, no pain, nothing! I see the Holy Spirit moved in me, in that place. It was strong. After the worship, I quite down myself for a few minutes and praise God for what He did. It was God and nothing else.

This is what I experience, what is it to be used by God. Worship, never about us but it's all about God. To let God use me when I was leading is a previlege. All Glory to God for what He have done. God works tru us when we allow Him to.

This is what we do when it comes to worship.
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Pray together with the team before and after the worship, EVERY team members must be in, for me this is very important, this is a time for us to know our focus and I strongly believe that God wants us to pray as one team. This is also to create unity in the team.

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Have FUN! I will always tell my team that I don't need anything fancy and stuff, just give me some FUN! Esp to the musicians I'm working with that afternoon, it's not about skills anyway. For me when my team is having fun, I have fun, and the floor will get the same thing too. FUN IS IMPORTANT, well at least in children ministry.

I pray that you guys will make a choice today to be use by the one and only that you can trust most that is God. May your today be fill with joy and peace. God bless.

P/s: Special thanks to those who help and support me real much by praying, giving me tips and caring for me, what you guys have done is highly appreciate. Praise God for people like you all! God bless!

Finally my streamyx is alive again...it has been so so so long that my streamyx cannot connect, special thanks to TMNet! haha LOL...

Well peeps! hope that I can spend alil more time here.... i have nothing to say now~ just wanna tell you guys that God is always good, you might be going tru some hard time now... but there's a reason for it and I'm pretty sure that you will get tru it somehow! for God is good. He don't harm my friend....He don't. So is your life been challenge? well congrats! for you're gonna be bring to another level of faith and another level of life now! Do not worry, written in the Bible, so do not. Do your best in everything and let God deal with the rest. Praise Him! Praise Him my fellow friends! for He is good!

Fomula to keep yourself alive and well, Praise and Pray. Keep close my friend, keep close. God love you all so much that i wanna kiss you all out there!!! If you read this post and am looking forward for a kiss from God, tell me ah..hahaha! don worry i won't do anything to you guys!

Remember! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!