Towards Eternity

She sit on her chair all the time. She fall asleep on her chair often. She doesn’t not talk as much as use to be. She can’t walk much. She doesn’t eat much. She doesn’t smile as much as use to. She is just getting weak. She seams to be always tired. She, can’t remember things like she use to be anymore. =[ She’s my beloved gramma.

My gramma is getting weak I guess. She is not as active as she used to be. Yesterday when I was talking to her, I answer her questions. Few minutes later she will starts to ask me those questions again and I will have to tell her again. That will repeat for a few times. She is a wonderful women. One that is just so loving. She have a great smile on her face. Her cooking is just so wonderful. She used to talk a lot, walk a lot, move a lot. She is always and forever that humble before man and she is still. She is so patience that when people scolded her or something she will never go against them. She is forever caring, she always gives the best that she can for her children and also us as her grandchildren. She is so loving, she will always ask about my dad if he didn’t go to her place for one day. She wants to talk to my dad everyday and see him everyday. She is just that wonderful. People sometime thinks that she is annoying and disturbing. Sometimes, she is just trying to help. She is just the most amazing gramma. Most loving, most caring. She is a great women that I think everyone should meet and everyone will love her for who she is. Even tho she worrys a lot sometime, but she is just trying to be a mother, a gramma, a great gramma, a sister, an aunt.

When I was went for a visit at her place yesterday, I really enjoy talking to her. I don’t mind repeating the same thing again and again. When I woke out from her kitchen, I realize that she was asleep on her chair, which awhile ago I was just talking to her. I was quite sad when I saw her felt asleep, knowing that she’s tired and need to rest a lot of time, that reminds me of the time where she use to teach me how to cook. She use to take good care of me. She will give me everything. Everything. I will never wanna imagine the tomorrow of hers. I don’t wanna think about all that. I just wanna give her my best for my todays. I really love her. Yes, there is a lot of things going tru my mind now. But. Let me tell you. You might think she is annoying, but what makes you think that she deserve to be treated in that way? Love her please. In the right way.

I cried last night while I was talking to God about her. I do not understand why some people can’t just treat her better than what they’re doing now. People, words do hurts. I can’t help much, I can’t stop people from doing those things towards her. I can’t go against them. I can’t do much. But what I can do is to love her, love her. What I can do is to pray for her. Pray. I don’t wanna think about what will happen next, because I just don’t want to. Let me do my best to love her today Lord.

You all out there. If you seldom visit your grandparents or the elders. It is time to give and show them some love. It is not about how busy you are, it is never about you. It is about the she or he. If you wanna be a blessing, learn to bless your love ones first with love and care. Speak wise. Let your words be a blessing and not a curse.

She.

Just the other day one aunty asks me, “Do you have boyfriend?” I answered with a smile “no” then she said. “Can look for one oready!” Again I smile.

Do you look everywhere to search for that husband or wife of yours? To be honest, I do think bout this person. What happen today in my life change my perspective for the rest of my life=]

Some of you may know that I dream about this husband of mine. 3 times. In all the dreams it says something different but all of it is about him and our life as one, is how God show him to me. All this dream able me to know that I will be spending my life with a special someone in the time to come. It’s like God telling me that I will meet him one day and it was like a short introduction of him. Thru this dreams, I know that there’s no need to worry or even trouble myself to look so hard for I know that he’s somewhere out there. I started to love him after those dreams. If you were to ask me, I think this is where our love story starts. From the day I knew him in my dream=]

Few days ago I had a dream, a dream that I tot it’s nothing. Beyond my expectation that dream change everything around me today. Last night I dreamed too, this dream is alil complicated. Ask me and I will share with you personally=]. When I woke up this morning I was wondering why do I have this dream, I said to myself, “it’s just another dream”. But it keep running in my mind. So I have no choice but to talk to God about it and then I went off for work. That dream actually cost me to be alil moody this morning. Here’s the cool part. When I was doing my stuff in front of my laptop, suddenly this dream came to me again, same, I was wondering what is this dream about man. Out of no where suddenly the dream that I had few days ago puff up! My mind started to move and understand whats going on. The next thing I knew, I smile, full with joy. Why?

Well I guess once again I am reminded of that special someone that is somewhere around the world. It was like a reminder of him and that I do not need to worry or do anything about this. I do not need to look around or even think of it because I know deep inside that he’s somewhere and we’ll meet one day or maybe we have oready met?. Honestly, I felt more in love with him today. You may ask, how do you felt in love with someone that you may not even meet? Well, I just did and I just know. You will need to know all my dreams to know why am I so confident bout it=] don’t you just wanna know about my dreams? Ask and you will receive=] One condition, respect=]

I do not know who or what kinda guy is he. But I trust God that he is the great one that we will be spending our life with. I am just so thankful for him even now. I’m still smiling. I thank God for how He shows me stuff=]. How he give me confirmation and encouragements. It all started when I start to ask God and talk to God about it. Like a Father, He talks to me, advice me, guide me, and teach me to hold on, encourage me. Sometimes even when I didn’t ask, He will update me and amazed me with all this. Now, I have a God that love me so much, a God that speaks to me. A family that is so loving and always be there for me. Friends that is so amazingly wonderful in your own beautiful ways, everyone of you I appreciate=] and, a guy that love me and we will go thru ups and down together with God, family and friends together as part of our life.=] God You’re awesome!

I’m in love=]

Just finish my 3rd week of practical training. Was at site today from 10am till 16:30. Tired out but worth it. One, the view is just simply wonderful. Two, I do gain a lot of knowledge in specific things when in site. Am still loving this working thingie=]

This is what I'm going to do in the future. I mean, this is how my life will be for many years as I choose this as my career for life. This week was really busy, aside of going to work after work hour i will need to meet up with different people for different purpose. It's tiring, just the other day I went home only around 22:00 sumthing but, I enjoy it real much. Sitting down with different people means I will get to learn different things from everyone. Blessed am I. This is the time where I gain a lot of knowledge, a good starting of my career life. As in my 3years plan, for the first year one of it is to get connected, connection and relationship, this is definitely helping a lot. Working in this office, my boss will often bring me around to meet new people, for now, most of the people is so new to me but I'm getting into it. Learning how to communicate with others. Different people you will need to communicate in different ways. What to say and what not. Good=] It is such a great blessing to be able to learn all this and deal with lots and lots of people, just as I expected. Thank God for my boss and a colleague that is just so willing to teach and guide me in every way.=] I do not talk much when I meet up with people now, am learning to communicate with everyone. It's fun to have get to learn something new everyday.

I also get to handle some design things too in my practical training. I thank God for my boss that is just so daring and willing to let me do design and drawing for her. definitely I learn more that I expected. Learn something that is beyond my expectations. Wonderful=] I might not be the best yet, but I promise I will do the best that I can. One of my friend said this, "this career, you will need to work real hard". Well I can see that now. Coming and going to be. Yet, I praise God for all the opportunity. Not everyone get a great boss and colleague like I do, I really appreciate that. To be able to do some work for this company is definitely my pleasure, really, I gain more and there's even more to come. Site visit, we do it a lot. Sometime will need to stay for the whole morning of afternoon or just like today, the whole day. Tired out you will be but I really enjoy doing that, I like going here and there and the best thing is that I get to learn things around the site. I will get sick once awhile like today, I guess that is because I'm still not use to this.

God is good aint? Other than working, I too am doing some freelance. Thru this freelance I learn even more in communication. Taking a freelance is another way to learn and also at the same time sharpen my skills and design. Am still new in this but am trying the best that I can for it. I learn to not to be afraid of failure here, learning from failure is too very important. Do not make the same mistake again. How you handle a job or a project is very important, it shows your professional and it let me able to see what I can do and what can I do more. I'm currently learning to be more humble and to solve design problems. Solving questions that been asked about my design either from third party or myself. I learn to be really independent thru freelance. To be able to learn something new I will need to meet up with the best person in their particular field. I will need to meet up with this people and have a long talk with them personally, again, communication and relationship. How do I get to this best among the best? thru some great people that God place around me=] and again, communication and relationship. Honestly I get even more tired that in college when I have a freelance on hand. The only time I get to do my stuff is after working hour which is also the only time I have to meet up with people, but God is so good, He have everything under His control. I will definitely be working real hard now. Real hard.

In this field, designers. One thing that I learn is to be really careful with people. Who you are talking to, what you are talking about and how you are talking to this person in particular. Who to trust, how to trust, what level of trust. Again communication skills. A little some saying something wrong might learns you into a very bad impression and an unstable future when you're starting to be called as a designer. I learn to be extra careful with people around me. One is not to go over board on others another is to protect myself. This is also one of the reason I am alil quiet in times. Gonna need to learn even more about this. Thank God for great people around me that always guide me and help me. God guide my lips and my every action.

Lots to learn, lots to learn. Not gonna fear of failure. Giving and doing the best that I can. Staying strong and hopefully healthy.This is where my career will start,from now on. Am planning ahead and see what will God bring me thru. I am trying my best and trying hard to learn from all around me. My today is going to be a beginning of my tomorrow. I am really blessed to have my today so I will do my best for my everyday for it is a blessing =]

For those who may concern, if you may, do pray for me as I enter into this career life that I may be wise, mature and keep awaken in handling things and also people. Communication and relationship. Also do pray that I will have a healthy body as some of you know that I get sick easily and just enough strength for everyday. Your prayers is highly appreciated=] I will do my best because that's the best I can do.

May our great God refresh you again and again everyday, may you be able to see His blessings and ways in every little things around you=]

Blessing.
Theresa W.

My cat died. When I was on my way back from work, in the car, my dad told me that the kitten is dead bang by my neighbor this morning. When I leave house to work, I didn't even get to spend alil time with him because he was playing with the glass. I miss him so much. I cried the moment my dad told me bout it. When reached home just now I just can't stand it, seams like every corner of my house is a memory of him. I cried and cried, until I was so tired I slept. I tot that it, i'm done with crying but honestly I'm crying hard too now. I miss my kitten very much. Worst, I didn't even get to look at him for the last time. My neighbor throw his body away. I just don't wanna remember how my first cat died + now the second one died in the same way, I can feel that pain. I don not want to say goodbye yet. No I don't. I just wanna cry it all out hopefully I will feel better after this. I wanna go out, away from this house awhile, this house that bring so many memory of him.

I never tot that he will go away just like that. I miss him so much. There will be no more kitten to play with me. No more kitten to bug me. I'm not trying to make myself sad, I just wanna let out of everything. Just let me cry. I'm having headache now I guess is because of crying. This kitten has been such a great blessing to my family and I. Even tho my mom was like not liking him, I know he bring much joy to this family. Seeing this little one grew up from being a weak kitten to a healthy playful kitten. From scared of everything to wanting to eat my hamster. From a tiny to a fatty. I miss those days. ='( Even tho I know he's not around nmore, but I think I just can't stop thinking that he's somewhere around. I expect him to come out from somewhere asking for food, and then I remember that he's not around anymore.

You who have animals. Please give them the best that you can. They, like you only have one life to live in. Give them your love and care everyday of your life. You will never know when are they going to leave you. I hope my kitty had a great life of his while he's here. Loosing him is just too painful. I don't think anyone of of you will want that. Your animal is your family. They go tru life with you. You might think they have a better life than you, but, they really deserve to a the best life they can, just like you and I. Love your animals. If your neighbor owned one. Do the animal a favor, check them out before you remove your car. You do not want to kill.

I miss him so so much. Thats what I am now. I know I'm not in the best condition now to drive but staying in this house for now is just alil painful. I wanna go for a ride. Just give me one night to cry, thats all I ask for. Will my kitty go to heaven?

There's nothing leave to do, but goodbye. Goodbye kitty. =''(

In Loving Memory
Goodbye.

I think I'm the most most most blessed person in this world. Yesterday was my first day of practical training. It was awesome! I get to go for site visit with my colleague, we were having great time together. Basically in office there's only her and I. Her name is Rainnie. We're having a sharing office with Mr Wong which is owner of the graphic part. I work close with Rainnie, we go to places together. I'm blessed. I'm blessed by her, by my boss, by colleague from the graphic part. This place is with joy! I can just walk in and out, talk as loud as I want, laugh as loud as I want. Haha.

Today msAnnie which is my boss, Rainnie and I went off to do some visitations and also meeting with client. I was really blessed. This is only my second day of work and I get to learn that much. Get to meet up with lots of different people. How cool. God loves me. I enjoy going here and there, working in office and really enjoy people around me and meeting up with people=]

I am actually enjoying this working lifestyle now. I just love it and I choose to love it and not to make it as a pressure for me. I think it is such a blessing to be able to work. Such a great time to learn. Not only on computer stuff, design but also connecting, communicating. Learning how to communicate with different people is what I am now learning from msAnnie and Rainnie esp when it comes to meeting up with clients, workers.. cool.

I am too blessed. I am blessed by testimonies of others. Sharing of others. Personal time I have with others individually in any ways. I learn alot from these people around me. Some are really new to me that makes me thinks, which is good altho I will need alil time to understand and actually convert it into something that I can learn of. I really love spending personal time with others individually, I just really love it. Some great peeps around me that just never give up on me. These peeps that I can count on, I love them. Recently God is just packing me with more and more spiritual food=] and head knowledge from friends of mine and also strangers that I met. Good.

I'm blessed by my family. My parents and sister are just adorable!! My dad send me to work and back home everyday without complain and when I reach home, it's just a great fun time at home with my mom and dad. My sis is the naughty around me who bug me for good. hahaha Her buggings just bring me warm and comfort.=]

Taking this opportunity to thanks all those who have really support me and pray for me. I really appreciate what you guys did and because of all those prayers, I am the most blessed person in the world! haha. I love you guys so much. I pray that God will amazed you with His love and blessing the moment you wake up=] Amen.

Thats all for now. Loving God, Loving People, Loving Life.

Loving you.

Theresa. W