Hmmm... what can i do more to from this point of my life? what is that God You're trying to tell me? Giving up in those hopes that i had before? I'm confuse and ya did not know what i should do nmore.. did not know what can i do more.
Life is not easy but it's full of fun. Everyday eventually you will experience something new. And i know very well that i am. But well there will come to a point that i cant let go of something. Sometime is just taking alil more time to get tru it. but i'll survive nway. Just need time to get tru it i guess...Lord ones again i ask You to let Your will be done. And i know i can take this cos You go before be. Dear Lord, what shall i do now Lord. How can i be a blessing to others Lord. Your will be done.
My cat died this morning, crash by car i guess. and ya i do miss him real much. cos without my lil cat, life just goes alil different. Give me some time i'll be fine. I guess everyone love to drive real fast...but ya i think is good to slow down whn you're suppose to be..cos who knows you might bang on someone else pets or even their cat. Ya be careful. Father how shall i praise You even tho things happen so fast? would You please guide me.
Lord. I'm tired of all this. but i know there's sumthin that You want me to know, to do. Lord bring me deeper. There's always a reason for everythin. And i'll wait for You to move Lord. I'm giving up.
Giving UP
Author: Theresa /
God works in you and me
Author: Theresa /Fuh! tired out! was running my college 1st term exhibition for the last 2 days. It was really tiring but it was AWESOME! We had our artworks display and fashion show and also live band by our own students. Me and my vice president, Michelle was the MC for both day. At the beginning i was really really nervous! cos ya....i always get nervous in the beginning.. but after that everythin was good...exclude get scolded by my lecturer cos i dont remember our college's number...haha! ya my bad..hee..
Do you know how much the music can influence the whole mall!?? haha! When our students start to preform their songs everyone starts to hang around. Even before that everyone is oready staying around..when the music start i'm so so so amazed by them! they play some rock and jazz. most rock in the mornin and jazz at night. I was like..i dono! just AMAZED! staring at them playin the guitar....awesome! gosh gosh...
It was really tiring..not only for me but all of the students especially the music students. They have to rush most of the time they were always somewhere else b4 the exhibition. Goodness.. pity them... they didnt get to practice for the exhibition cos they were gettin ready for their exam which is on the same day! gosh! so whn it comes to the exhibition they hav to figure out wat song they wanna present and sing. Crazy! I was really worried bout them, their health. But this guy, Boly, he's alwys said don worry...we'll figure it out..they still encourage us! and of cos we encourage them too lar.. and is it cos of them too the both days went real cool! haha Praise The Lord.
Yesterday after exhibition i rush myself to a Rock and Jazz concert, and saw my SiA band there! the same person who hav been on stage for both day in our SiA exhibition.! and they're gonna be on stage again that night...with a really really tired face.. but they said "This is for God!" thats right! haha! awesome ppl... i intention of goin to this Rock and jazz is not just to njoy the music but oso to check out if there's some SiA students there n turns out there was! Hang out with them while they're still around. For i knw they're really tired and they wanted to do this for God. I just wanna be there to just support this guys.. they really mean alot to me. For they are my bro n sis in Chirst! I love them real much. And they love God that much too! whn it comes to time for them to shine..they bring out 1 jazz and a praise song. And it was AWESOME! more than words. God is really using them..and i'm really thankful. God love all of us! haha! ah!! this is more than words! n ya!
Another thing that amazed me is the catholic who went to preform on stage even the SiA students. I've never see catholic worship like they do! At that point i know that God is doing something in them too.. and ya God works individually. AWESOME!
Even tho they're so so so tired but YET! they do it for God and it was good. God really amazed me with ppl around me. their life, their hard times, their good times, free or busy or whatever... there's still God who works in them. God works individually.
God bless!
Dream
Author: Theresa /
Rainbow After The Rain
Author: Theresa /Arr...its been quite a time didnt update here.. well let me see.. the whole April is a real real busy time for me, cos of assignments and presentation to do. Well ya..... There's AssigmentsSsSs, 2 presentation, meeting minutes to write...meeting to attend, committee and the management meeting. Programmes to run! gosh gosh...this saturday and sunday SiA Exhibition~ haha! yap busy busy busy.
It was a real hard week last week, April 22 was my final presentation, so there's alot to do and alot to rush cos i have never ending assignments. There's perspective to draw, autocad to rush, sketching, and other subjects! haha yes alot. I can be real real real real stress esp the last few days b4 my presentation comes. But i choose not to.
Joy will always say this, don worry..njoy your time in doing your assignments. n i'll always remember that. This is a blessing from God that i can actually study and it is His will that i'm where i am today. So i told God im not gonna give up no matter what! n im not gonna stress out or complain bout anythin but i'm gonna njoy it. Thats my prayer. Even tho time is running out, but i really never worry bout it cos i dono...just have a feeling that i'm gonna do this n m gonna finish it on time. So i keep on and on and on and on! There's a few time i really feel like giving up and frustrated. But i told God that NO! im not gonna feel all that instate! im gonna enjoy this and win this war! And this is all for God alone!
I still get to sleep everyday...is just that for 4 to 5 hours per day only..haha but still doing good. Get sick few days right b4 presentation comes. It was really challenging and it was really takin my breathe away for the last few days b4 my presentation. 1 day b4 the BIG day, i woke up in the middle of the night and vomit! dono y..haha but ya...den the next day which is the last day for me to get things done and ready for presentation...BLACK OUT!!! i'm like..gosh gosh gosh....y now!!! and most of the SiA students text each othere...OO NO!!! MY ASSIGNMENTS!! haha! so i have to paint my water color painting wit my lil emergency light..but its better than nothin..and i told God, i'm gonna praise You even in this situation, and He give me strength=] everytime when some NOT GOOD mind comes to me i will listen to Ps Jaeson Ma's 'Life Is Beautiful' and it really encourage me alot to keep moving on! haha Awesome God.
Finally, the BIG day comes. Didnt sleep the day b4...not! i did...for 30minutes...haa.. den off to college for presentation! hahaha...real enjoy my presentation that day...love it much! haha And my lecturer said my presentation is real good just need to improve in my drawings and my design. So ya...I'm real glad that i have my today. God is awesome that He brings me tru out all this. In the mid of all this busyness there's too family probs...but God take everythin in control. My week goes real busy but i really enjoy every minute of it. Cause God is with me all the time and my strength is from Him alone. God is good..
Let God take control of your life..even tho things real hard sometime...enjoy it and trust in God and you'll see the different=] try it=]
Over Her Dead Body
Author: Theresa /
Release Date: 17 April 2008
Classification: U
Running Time: 1 hour 35 minutes
Director: Jeff Lowell
Eva Longoria Parker, Paul Rudd, Lake Bell, Lindsay Sloane, Stephen Root, Kali Rocha, W. Morgan Sheppard, Sam Pancake, Jason Biggs.
A Date
Author: Theresa /
After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said I love you but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.
That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie.'What's wrong, are you well,' she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. 'I thought that it would be pleasant to be with you,' I responded. 'Just the two of us.' She thought about it for a moment, and then said,! 'I would like that very much.'
That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's.
During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation -nothing extraordinary, but catching up on recent events of each other's life. We talked so much that we missed the movie. As we arrived at her house later, she said, 'I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you.' I agreed.
'How was your dinner date?' asked my wife when I got home.'Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined,' I answered. A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have time to do anything for her. Some time later, I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined. An attached note said: 'I paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates - one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son.'
At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: 'I LOVE YOU!' and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is more important than God and your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till ' some other time.'
My Little Car
Author: Theresa /
No not this want
My cute little car....what a blessing. Still remember after i get my L i prayed for a car so that i can go to college and other stuff. And there "POOF" comes a little cute car for me. My aunt a.k.a 'kai ma' who have always been supporting me and my family so much.. she offer me her car and i still remember she saying "everyone of my children get to drive this car!". So sweet ya=] thats it! i ask and i receive... God is good... from that day on i decided to let my car be a blessing to others around me, cos God have bless me with it. Nope i didnt actually name my car... and i dono is it a he or she..haa! all that i know is that this is my beloved car. A sign of love from a Father to His daughter. My awesome and beyond words God. And a sign of love from a mother to her daughter. My wonderful and awesome aunt=].
My little car have been with me for around 1 year almost 2 years.. and it has go with me alot of places and have bring me to lots of places too.. mostly other ppl's house. This lil car born 20 years ago i guess.. and it is still goin on good over tho it has loose its left side mirror BUT it is still real good, cos it last really been a blessing to me and to others.
I love my car real much, cos it's not only an ordinary car. Y? Lots of things happens cos of this car. Well of cos there's accidents, but look at the bright side! my car is the 1 who have been beside me whn accidents happens...LOL! ya..wasting lots of money on fixing it to make it work better....but is so that i may bless more ppl u see.. so is a good thing. Well thats not all. My car is part of the reason i'm close to my friends too. With this lil car i can go anywhere with my frens, i can send them home... there's where relationship and friendship grows... when my friends is in my car.. for sure we will talk and talk...and ya talk! Sometime is just some funny stuff that we chat but most of the time is something that trouble us in our heart. Something you will tell only to your close friends. Friends trust in me, they talk to me bout lots of stuff...not that cos i have a car so thats y they trust in me. But it's this car that brings us deeper too.. Disciple happens in my car too.. haha kinda.. i will always share with 1 of my friend bout my life going on, and she will too do the same when we're in the car.Every minutes is precious. From she get into the car till the minute she get down from the car. V talk almost all the time. Sharing bout life..and talkin bout how great God hav been to us..
I train ppl to behave themselves in my car. Means that they cant actually do some stuff when they're in my car. Like shout... smoking... sometime saying dirty words.. when they say sumthin not right i can just stop the car and throw them down..haa! And some stuff that must do is...of cos safety belt and have to lock the door, v dun wanna see ppl flying out fr the car.. Well they respect the do's ad dont in my car. I'll make it clear to them this is wat u cant do, and challenge them to do so. Just hope that they will learn not to be so nakal lar.. haha!
I spend lots of time with my family in the car too. Well sending my sis and mom to here and there... bringing my nephew to shopping every week.. Get closer to my sis family in this car too...even tho is only a few minutes together sitting in the car... you have no idea how many stuff me and my sis can fight and laugh about in that few minutes. My car hav been a blessing to my family.. awesome har.. and my nephew oso fall in love with my car.. always play with the staring and gear and don wanna let go! haha! cute! Sometime it is really tying when it comes to sending my sis to lots of places in a day...but it is how i can spend more time with her..especially in the car... even tho v argue alot lar but it always end up with laughter more than argument.. God is good=]
I really love to spend time with others in my car, cos we're sitting so close that when i ask them questions they HAVE to answer me. haha! and thats how i mess up with other ppl's life. This lil car of mine is the reason all this happens. Strengthen my relationship with my friends and family. This car is a blessing for me and i want it to be a blessing to others as long as it's with me. God is good. All glory to God for all that He've done. Now i can mess up with others life and can reach out using my car! God is good!
In everything that you have, let it be a blessing.
Obey
Author: Theresa / I'm so excited and m getting maself ready for my trip to Ranau and KL. Ranau for Passion Camp and KL for Superkids Enrichment Camp. Never tot that i can actually go for both.
Passion Camp which is goin to be on 30th of May till 1st of June..focus is to fire up the passion and in the young people's heart for their campus and the nation. Janice been talking bout it since February i think.. and since then i've been praying bout it, for God to show me should i go onot and the fees which is rm150. After praying for awhile i know God is asking me to go for it, for my college. Then few weeks later, my uncle bless me with some pocket money.. and it was rm200! wow so cool har! and there you go where my fees comes from.. amazing. So since then i pray the preparation for this camp, i know there's alot to learn and God is so going to impact me even more so that i may bless others in my campus.
March, aunt annie was chatting with me, and she told me bout this Superkids Enrichment Week which is on 1st of June till 6th of June. Superkids is a team who run their children ministry differently and creatively, so this enrichment week for to teach others creative ways in reaching out to the children, the community children. So aunt annie encouragement to join them in this trip. I told her i cant cos i have to go to the Passion Camp. She really hope that i can go and so i promise her i'll pray bout it and see what happen. So i did. After praying, i decided..yap Passion Camp is where i have to be in this time. I just have to join the Superkids for another time even tho i dono when will that be and where. But i must obey. And i told aunt annie that i have to go this camp is for my college...and she oso said oklar...
2 weeks ago, after the PK celebration, were still in kyrugma hall..then aunt annie walk towards where me and stephanie was.. we talk alil bout the worship team stuff, then she said "hei u know! the enrichment week ah..they change the date to 2nd of June!" at that point i was like..wat!!!??? really???? n was thinkin hei means that i can go...but wait! i need that money.. den aunt annie continue by saying.." if u really wanna go your aunt is going to sponsor you" again im like WAT!!!???? REALLY????? AH!!!! i was so so shock and amazed, i cant say a word! And b4 this there's another aunt asking me to go and she will sponsor me too. Then aunt annie ask me, " so you goin?" i didnt answer her...cos m really in shock...amazing don you think! then she ask me again " so?" haha! so i keep quite and think for a few minutes.. thinking lots of stuff in that few minutes. Fes, is this God's work? den what bout my college? how bout my responsibility as the president? u mean i get to not goin to class for 1 week?? haha! lots of questions..but i end up saying 'YES' to aunt annie! haha y? i oso dono...haha! after saying that..aunt annie said... ok! i'll handle the rest for u! is like! WOW! haha awesome. Then after the shocking and amazed..i praise God for what He've done.. i was really shouting and praising God in the hall. Im was so so amazed and m still.
Tuesday morning, aunt annie called to talk bout me bout KL. It’s suppose to be 1st of June depart around 8pm.. but everyone include myself is concern bout my safety lar cos I dono KL real much. So they ask me to take the morning wan which is on 2nd June, so I said.. ok for safety lar.. and she told me she’ll book the ticket lar. Few minutes later, she called again and she said “ hei we found another way for you to go there.” My aunt she offered to go all the way to Ranau on 31st of May to just drive me home after the night session so that I can join another 2 teacher fr SIB on the next day and safely arrive KL. I’m like…huh??? wat??? wan mer….i really dono wat to say at that point. I dono to say yes onot cos is like so troubling my aunt lar… so I keep quite for awhile and aunt annie just advice me to go along with them cos they know the place and is really more safe lar. So I just oklar… den she said ok! Will deal wit the rest. So amazed!
All the while…all this happen without giving me anytime to plan, think or even make a better decision. Things happen so fast! Haha! And all this while all I can do is really trust in God for all this. The choices between 2, the fees, all the money that I need to go KL. All this things that I need. I really cant do much. But trust God. I wanna obey Him by goin where He ask me to, and this is how He bless me! With all this! I ask myself y the date suddenly change? Isit just because of me??? Wow! Haha I’m special so do u! cos God love us equally.
Obeying God leads me to His heart and brings me blessing that I’ve never tot! not in the ways that I wanted to but is all bout Him. I know He bless to go to both, Ranau and KL and there’s a bottom line responsibility, that is for me to bless others. And im that ready to do so. Cos I have God with me. Obeying Him really brings me joy and peace. Imagine! You don’t need to worry bout anything even when you’re going away!! Not a thing! God is awesome and He knows best.
Obey God and see what happens. Is never bout us but all bout Him.
Prayer for a friend
Author: Theresa /Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
In complicated circumstances
with clouded view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.
I fear that I won’t have the words
that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God.
And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.
Lord I lift my friend to You.
Though he's my best friend in the world, 
I know he means much more to You. I
want so much to help him,
but this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.
There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strain.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.
Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
