Towards Eternity

Do you know what's the feeling of being fully used by God? Is He taking control of you or is it the other way round?

I've been giving an opportunity recently to know what's the meaning of being use by God and been challenge. When God spoke to me bout this, we have alil long chat. I ask, "What is it like to be use?". well He didn't answer me right after i ask that, perhaps this is how he answer my question.

When we were chatting, one thing that He make it clear for me is that I shall have a healthy body in order to do more great thing for Him. So I said...okey... I guess you know that i felt sick often...well obviously He knows. So the challenge begin the day after that. I wanna be use by God fully, no matter what I'm doing, and where I am, but this didn't comes easy. The next thing I know is that i felt sick! gosh, one thing that I've been told. I've been sick for 2 weeks and it started with high fever for 2 days, 100.6c. I know this is not a fight of my flesh but this is spiritual. I pray all day and everyday that I will be heal, but well things doesn't goes as I wanted to. After visiting the doctor, I have to eat 4 types of medicine, which one of them taste real real bad, and after eating the medicine I can taste nothing when I eat. For the whole 2 week I haven't been eating much. All I remember doing is drinking Coke because it helps and eating salad or drinking soup, because eventually everything I ate will come out real soon anyway.

Last saturday, is my turn to lead worship in Praise Kids. I was so weak for the whole week, and the night before I spend an hour + in the toilet! funny? ya alil but it suffer. I don't wanna give up and tell my leader that I can't lead worship because I am sick. So I've been praying hard that whole week that I will feel better and heal in Jesus Name. Saturday 12pm, time for me to get out and go for worship practice, still I wasn't feeling any better. 1:30pm after practice, still the same. After that we spend some time praying and the team prayed for me. The team members is such a blessing to me, they pray for me and give me tips too! I've really loved in this ministry. My leader came to me and ask, "Are you sure you can do this?" I do not want to give up and tell God, "God use me today" and I told my leader, "Yes, by faith." So the celebration start, introduction, still I'm not feeling any better but I give my best for God on that stage. Worship time! prepare myself for a few minutes and get myself back on that stage and heat the best for God. Surrender. Me and my team on stage have great fun leading worship and the children and all the people on floor enjoy themselves real much! Amazing! It turns out the worship was great, it was short, but great. I felt nothing but the Holy Spirit and the joy and fun when I was leading, no pain, nothing! I see the Holy Spirit moved in me, in that place. It was strong. After the worship, I quite down myself for a few minutes and praise God for what He did. It was God and nothing else.

This is what I experience, what is it to be used by God. Worship, never about us but it's all about God. To let God use me when I was leading is a previlege. All Glory to God for what He have done. God works tru us when we allow Him to.

This is what we do when it comes to worship.
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Pray together with the team before and after the worship, EVERY team members must be in, for me this is very important, this is a time for us to know our focus and I strongly believe that God wants us to pray as one team. This is also to create unity in the team.

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Have FUN! I will always tell my team that I don't need anything fancy and stuff, just give me some FUN! Esp to the musicians I'm working with that afternoon, it's not about skills anyway. For me when my team is having fun, I have fun, and the floor will get the same thing too. FUN IS IMPORTANT, well at least in children ministry.

I pray that you guys will make a choice today to be use by the one and only that you can trust most that is God. May your today be fill with joy and peace. God bless.

P/s: Special thanks to those who help and support me real much by praying, giving me tips and caring for me, what you guys have done is highly appreciate. Praise God for people like you all! God bless!

Finally my streamyx is alive again...it has been so so so long that my streamyx cannot connect, special thanks to TMNet! haha LOL...

Well peeps! hope that I can spend alil more time here.... i have nothing to say now~ just wanna tell you guys that God is always good, you might be going tru some hard time now... but there's a reason for it and I'm pretty sure that you will get tru it somehow! for God is good. He don't harm my friend....He don't. So is your life been challenge? well congrats! for you're gonna be bring to another level of faith and another level of life now! Do not worry, written in the Bible, so do not. Do your best in everything and let God deal with the rest. Praise Him! Praise Him my fellow friends! for He is good!

Fomula to keep yourself alive and well, Praise and Pray. Keep close my friend, keep close. God love you all so much that i wanna kiss you all out there!!! If you read this post and am looking forward for a kiss from God, tell me ah..hahaha! don worry i won't do anything to you guys!

Remember! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!

Weeee...God is good. I had a real great week busy and refreshing. Let see... Eklektos Training, Children Camp and teachers training all by Ps David and Ps Steven all this was on last week and few days back. I am really blessed by this two great man of God. I enjoy real much in this process of upgrading my faith and trust. Children camp was AWESOME! God love me so much to let me be part of this ministry, children ministry.

We have Ps Dav and ps Stev with us on the day camp, they were the one who do the teaching and basically... the whole camp! Im so blessed by their teaching, its about hero! ya.... Jesus is my hero!!!! alright! lets talk more bout trust now.

Tru both of them i've learn more bout anointing and trust. I see how they trust in God and where God brings them to when they choose to trust in the Lord in everything they do. Well i really look up to both of them for their faith in God. I was so amazed when God show me how the children worship God with all their heart, 1 pure heart. AWESOME! Honestly i wasn't that ready for the camp, i mean...i do not know much what are we suppose to do, the only thing i know is that me and kimberly suppose to lead the worship. So with that! Just do it for God la. Alot of times we have to sing and lead songs that we do not know, of course with Ps Dav on leading us la... imagine that! knowing nothing about a new song and have to sing that song on stage! gosh! challenging...and i love it! hahahaha. Amazingly we did it! and this is all because of the Holy Spirit. Hallelujah! The worship team was so blessed and i'm so blessed by this team of peeps who choose to trust God and giving the best that they have for God! the little backup singers, the musicians and Kimberly. God shows me how this people grow spiritually and how we grow together as 1 big family. We all choose to trust in God and let Him do whatever He wants in us, and he did use us and his instrument to reach out to the children. The worship was awesome! We had alot of fun confusing most of the time..haha! but we really do enjoy it because God is taking control! It's just so great to see the children really worship in spirit, now, they're not just lifting up their hands because we said so, but! ah! you should see how they worship! it just that pure heart! that first love towards God shown in their face. At that point i know that God is really moving in all this little ones' life and ours too. God is so so good!

I think God really shows me what is it to be TRUST in Him. When you choose to trust in Him, miracles happens, life been change, not only other people but ourself too. I learn to trust His with all my heart, esp when this children camp comes, and for reture i received more than enough! I see children grow in their faith, teachers and helpers too. Seeing them worshiping God with all their heart is just!!! ah im speachless! its AWESOME! and i can't ask for more. I love God! He not only let me see all this but He use me, and that feels so great...i don't even need to worry a thing! cos He is already using me. I’ve really learn to let myself to be an instrument of God. Now I pray like I never before, spend more and more time with God. Pray for other people around me like I never before and doing things by faith, I have no idea why sometime I pray for something that I do not know, but I know for sure it is God wanna speak to this person that I’m praying for. Now I’m living a life that not mine anymore, a life that full with God’s plan, doing my best everyday in everywhere for God and trusting that God will use me in everywhere I am, for this life belongs to Him

Trusting God is just the best thing I’ve ever felt, it’s awesome! I believe that in everything I do, God have His anointing upon it, and I believe with this trust, things will be change for a better! I know God love people around me. I know God love me! I love Him real much too. Keeping myself close to Him is just so fun for I get to know Him more. I love this life, for it is God who is in control. Thank you Lord! Ps Stev said this, EXPECT! That’s right, I expect God to do some great thing when I pray, for I know that He will do even greater things that I could ever imagine. Don’t worry Ps Stev! I remember what you shared with me. Thank you=]

If you are wondering what is so great about this God I’m saying, I tell you He’s not only my God, He’s my best friend. Ah… I’m so so touch by this best friend. Well are you ready to trust God?

God I take this opportunity to pray, pray that Lord you will guide us into trust You more everyday of our life, Father I believe that everything I pray, you heard it and you’re gonna do something with it. I love you Lord. May your Holy Spirit guide us all our days.

Thank you Ps Dav and Ps Stev for letting God use you=] God bless!

When is the last time you tell someone your testimony? What is your testimony?



Everyone have a testimony of themselves.. the testimony that i'm talking about here is something amazed you so much and God is in the picture of this amazing stuff, well thats my opinion on testimony here. Testimony is not only about how you came to know Christ, it doesn't end there. I've learn that actually we can have testimony for everyday.



The other day i was asking myself, so what is my testimony? When is this testimony happens? I remember hearing a sermon bout this, we gonna keep on update our testimony. So your testimony doesn't stop on how you came to know Christ! you have new testimony everyday. So i started to ask God what's the meaning of updating our testimony everyday? What actually is it like to have a new testimony about my yesterday when i woke up in the morning? Well guess what! Ask and you will receive.



Asking God to show me how to update my testimony everyday means that to simply letting Him take control of our life everyday. God do amazing stuff in our life everyday, if you realize that. No matter where we are, what we're doing, who we're with.. He create opportunity, and just for us to do His great thing on this earth today. If only i see my today tru God's eyes, if only i let God fill me with His spirit tru out my today, then i realize that.. there's really lotsa opportunity here and there, and you'll be amazed is how God use you in your today. Waw.. honestly.. going to college everyday is a challenge for me. Knowing that God wanna do something in SIA today, knowing that somehow i'm gonna update my testimony again for today! is just so exciting! Sometime i choose to run away from it, or maybe not bringing that spirit with me when i wake on this earth...it makes my yesterday was just so boring, nothing much to say about it, nothing much to do about it, which is not good, means i didn't do something for God today. Doing things for Him doesn't mean have to be BIG, simple talk with someone maybe is just what you need to do today, who knows that simple talk will change his or her life! right?



Real simple, when you wake up in the morning, pray that God will bring your tru your today, not tomorrow but today. Pray that you will be sensitive to His spirit, and the next thing you know... God will amazed you with something maybe a just alil things... so watch out there my friend! Let God use you just today. C'mon peeps! lets update our testimony today!



May God fill you guys with His Holy Spirit today. Amen